January 15, 2007

had a bad dream last night...

Did Abraham have strange dreams of having no son?
Did he set out empty picture frames, did he buy a baseball and mitt?
Did he tell his neighbors, his nephew?

What if?
What if it wasn't true at all?
What if he heard wrong?
What if he had sent away his son Ishmael in vain?

Humiliation.
Faith is walking in the face of humiliation.
Letting God pick up the pieces if it all comes smashing down.

1 comment:

Jason said...

Anna, you ask great questions. I suspect those questions explain where you have found all the wisdom that seems to season your thoughts and words.

Relative to Abraham's struggle, here's a question I am pondering of late (since Jessica and I are no more):

Doesn't God want me to be happy?
And the answer, from the lips of Elisabeth Elliot,"He wants you most to be Holy."

She also reveals why I become dejected as life turns out different than I expected,"The problem starts when we make up our own minds what will give us happiness and then decide, if we don't get exactly that, that God doesn't love us. We slither into a slough of God-hates-me self-pity."

I am humbled.